Wow, my anxiety is through the roof right now. I'm constructing all kinds of scenarios in my head like "she met someone new" or "she didn't miss me, or even really the kids, so she knows she can be 'single' without being dependent on me" or the most destructive one:
"Her current state of 'detachment' from me for the past 2-3 weeks is her slowly moving away and she's never going to come closer again."
I just don't get the whole 'back in the tunnel' thing. I'm trying to find a similar place in my life where I might have been like that and I can't. So I don't get it. What is she thinking about or is she thinking about anything? How can she still act like she doesn't have any feelings for me? OM is gone, I'm very changed, what's the problem?
Crap. I did so well all week and I SET EXPECTATIONS that she would at least come back and want to hug me or something. But, she didn't pay any attention to me at all. What is that all about?
I know, I know, my Counselor and Psych both have told me she is 'processing'. What is that really?
I'm not giving up all hope, I'm just in a state of confusion and anxiety. WHY do I let my feelings be so influenced by her? That is the LAST thing about me I have to change before I will be 'complete'.
I've done ALL the work, ALL that has been asked of me. Why doesn't she want me now? Argggg!
I know this is not about me but, I feel the way I feel.
