Quote: Hang in there, Frank. Her ivory tower is crashing. I read your post to Shark earlier about your wife and her counseling session. A breakthrough is coming. Wait and see. I sense a bitter root trying to take hold of your heart. Don't let it happen, Frank. Things are changing, just not according to your preferred timeframe.
Maybe her 'Ivory Tower' is crashing, but that doesn't mean that she'll see our marriage as an option again. Heck, I don't know WHAT it means.
I guess if I was on the outside looking in, I'd say the past week she has been 'introspective'. Very quiet when she's around me, seems a little depressed, or angry at times. But overall she's just 'blah'. I stopped 'initiating' even the smallest things over a week ago. She initiates pretty much nothing.
I guess I could say that the whole trip coming up has been heavy on her mind. I know she's scared she will screw up the opportunity she's been given by either pissing them off, or coming across as too weak. I think if you add the 'what should I do with my life, how do I really feel about Frank?' , 'What about divorce?' issues and she's got a lot on her mind.
Now, me of course being where I am at, which is still barely out of my own depression and stuff, I'm having all kinds of anxiety. Thoughts like 'did she leave to go today while still mad at me?' or 'What if she doesn't miss me at all?' or 'Maybe this is all part of her growing apart from me' and the usual crap. I'm still pretty fragile at times - It's only been a month since I actually gave MYSELF any care.
I keep feeling like I'm in the 'calm before the storm'. I hope not. At least this isn't as bad as her going to see OM was. Now that was pain.
