Well, this morning W was nervous about leaving for her massage training / business trip today. I was annoyed by her 'taking over' and telling me what to make for dinner, and she would go to the store to get things, etc. etc.
It's like she thinks I can't figure these things out on my own.
I kind of took it personally, and went in my room to listen to some music for a little while. She went to the store and came back with the various groceries. Then packed up her stuff and got ready to leave.
She said she was sorry we had argued this morning and I told her it was because I was taking it personally, and I was sorry too. She said she was really nervous about this trip.
She came over and gave me a long hug, then she left.
At first, I was hurt, thinking about the LAST trip in October and how our lives have changed because of OM she met there. This trip is nothing like that, totally different kind of people and enviroment.
I also think she worries that while she is gone so long (more than a day) that I will go back to old behaviors, drinking and such. Not going to happen, but I'm sure she worries.
So, sort of a bad beginning to 4 days of growth ahead of me, and her. I'm sure she'll call each day to talk to D10 before bed, and D10 will call her. I'm going to make sure I do not answer thephone, let the kids do that. And I'll try hard NOT to be available to talk. I want her to feel what it means to not have me there for support. I hope it continues to wake her up.
And, I hope her trip goes well and helps her move forward with her business.
