W: Hi, I wanted to let you know what's going on with D15 tonite.
Me: ok.
W: Well, she's all upset because you haven't been home the past couple nites. She's afraid you are stressing and are going to be drinking.
Me: Well, I think given the really bad stuff I've had to go through and not drank, that she would realize that isn't going to happen.
W: Well, I think what it really is is that you have been a STRONG PRESENCE IN THE HOUSE and the girls are missing it, and SO AM I. It seems like the house energy is out of balance. I know you are working hard on your projects, and I want to let you know that I appreciate what you do for the family. (Ah ha, Counselor got to her today)
Me: Well, I only need another day to get back on track so it'll be fine.
W: She's also worried about me leaving for 5 days next week. It's the first time I'll be gone since October and she's still got issues from that trip (she came back and said she wanted a divorce then) I think she's afraid you'll start drinking. (maybe she's afraid you'll find some new stupid solution to your life that will have more consequences on the family)
Me: Well, I think once she sees that isn't the case she'll be fine. And I won't be working late next week. I'll be right at home.
W: Well I hope so. D10 got needy too tonite. They have gotten used to your presence and I think it scares them when you aren't here. WE JUST FEEL LIKE SOMETHING IS MISSING.
Now, I think the girls still don't feel totally safe with W after her unreliable mothering during the holidays while she was 'in love'. Either way, her ridiculous comments about how she 'missed my presence' almost made me laugh. I mean, what do you think it will be like when YOU break the family apart for good?
When will she open her eyes?
I'd like to say I feel something but I don't. Other than I see so much humor in her comments.
Tomorrow is the last nite I'll be out late, and I will make sure I come home before their bedtimes. But I still plan on detaching from W.
I almost hope she decides she wants to 'fool around' tomorrow, just so I can say 'no'. I'm being a little twisted. But I'm keeping my energy to myself. And my girls.
