Quote: Shark is getting pretty smart, Frank. Aren't you glad for all that time you spent cultivating him . Now he's working on YOU! HA!
See, you reap what you sow! A good man like Shark who is willing to say it like it is, but not to use his words to cause harm, is very hard to find.
Quote: When are you going to be confident enough in yourself (and dare I say, in God) that you are no longer so controlled by your circumstances (i.e: your wife)? You would do well to strive to be the same in attitude and emotion regardless of what she does, says or acts like. How in the world are you going to do THAT you ask? Well, you Frank, need FAITH - and in something other than FRANK.
So far YOU are doing all the work, you leave nothing to God. You're working your tail off. How long before you see that although good things do happen occasionally, a brick wall is still a brick wall.
He's knocking. But you won't stop manuevering and strategizing long enough to answer the freakin' door
Well.
I've been alone so long, and have lost so much faith in humanity that I don't let go of my attempts to control my environment and those who are in it.
I don't know what 'work' God or any other 'higher power' will do for my situation, or the 'brick wall'. It has never been my understanding that you 'get what you want' through prayer. I usually only pray for strength, and for others to be protected. Not much else.
I CAN see that I need to be confident in myself, and allow life to happen, knowing that I am a good and decent man and that whatever happens, that will never change. You are right about faith. Having faith in ANYTHING has not been one of my strong points. To me, everything is a problem to be 'solved' and that's what I do - 'solve problems'. Hard ones.
This has been a problem that I CANNOT solve using my normal, logical brain. It consumes too much of my thoughts because of this. And I HAVE given her too much power over my life.
I guess what I hear you saying is that I should give it a rest and stop trying so hard. Perhaps I am interfering with God's work? With my own work?
I'm just not sure what thoughts to put 'in place of' the ones I have now. I'll have to think on that.
