This morning is no different. W is pleasant to talk to. I came up behind her and rubbed her shoulders. She told me to stop, because she was holding her coffee and she didn't need to be rubbed 'anywhere'. Her tone was crappy.

I guess the don't touch rule is now in effect. So close last week and now it's gone. Even though I didn't really 'have' her, I feel like I lost her all over again. I don't really 'feel' like DB'ing and being Mr Happy and all the things I did that may have influenced her to come closer. Or maybe I did nothing, she just got lonely and reached out to me.

Either way it's hard to want to do this any more.


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