Still more hope for a turnaround: On the way to work this morning, I rather obliquely said to W that "perhaps we could go to bed a bit early tonight." Now, of course, that violated something I had said the other night, to the effect that I felt we should be more specific with each other about our desires/expectations, because last week we had a couple of evenings where I said something like "I'd like to spend some time reading in bed with you this evening" (meaning that I wanted to spend time reading in bed, thereby creating some close/comfy/cozy time for us without any added expectation) but she took a shower before getting in bed, (meaning she felt I might be expecting sex). So I had made my comment about being more specific, but then this morning I broke my own "rule". So I sent her an email first of all apologizing for doing that, and saying that I would very much like to ML to her tonight, and adding that it isn't only for the physical release, but that last Monday night was so magical, I wanted to see if we could get a bit more of that going for us, and I also added MrsNOP's "I want" list that Chrome posted on Mojo's thread, mostly verbatim although I did change a few things a little to personalize it.
Anyway, when W picked me up from work we had a few errands to run, so we got to have a nice, private convo, and she said she'd read the email, and it was also a positive thing... she GOT that I was wanting to be loving, and wanting to be closer to her, and in the course of this discussion I think we also made a beginning at addressing some VERY old issues around LM and initiating... and bottom line, she said she wants ME to "be in the driver's seat" for a while. So I'm really starting to hope, now, that we might be in the very early stages of a real breakthrough here. Looks like we'll ML tonight, and perhaps with a new level of understanding, communication and appreciation! We'll see!!
