No with what I've been through and the trust he broke I can't keep myself from having questions run through my brain...what I can do is choose whether or not to let them affect what's going on and my behavior.
What I mean about a fine line with him is this....he'd really prefer I cuddle with him tonight to show my appreciation than tell him more than once verbally how much I enjoyed last night. He thanked me repeatedly the last few days for the BJ I gave him....but if I did that same type of thanking towards him for last night, he'd think it was overkill. With him too much verbal can appear insincere or manipulative like I'm hinting that we need to do that again tonight....when in reality, I know tonight is probably out for him.....tomorrow very possibly, but tonight will be a nice snuggle night and that he will like.
