I'm sorry you had to cacel your trip but I think it was a wise decision. It doesn't have to do with not trusting your H but it has everything to do with continuing the positive momentum.
Ditto on the sitting on H's face. I also feel kinda alone and disconnected up there and not free to enjoy myself due to not wanting to smother the guy! However, he seems to enjoy it so we do it sometimes or 69. Overall, I prefer one at a time oral - both the giving and receiving.
