I did something last night I haven't done in our M yet....I rolled over in bed while we were watching tv and flat out asked my H...."would you like a blow job?" The man almost fell out of bed LOL. Now, I'm not shy about asking something like that....but he's always made me feel like #1 weeknights were completely off limits sexually, and #2 I would be rejected....just as he always used to reject my offers for massages (which he no longer does).
He then looked at me strangely, put his hand on my forehead to check my temperature and kept looking at me like "have you lost your mind?". I didn't let this sway me....and said "It's a simple question...would you like one or not?" He repeated the temperature thing and I told him "I'm fine, I just felt like it, I've told you I like to do that, so I thought I'd see if you'd like one....a simple yes or no will be fine." He finally responded and said "I'd be an idiot to turn that down now wouldn't I?" My response was "yes, but you still haven't answered me....would you like one or not?" LOL He has this knack of not really giving me an answer, but leaving it up to me...not going for that this time.
He finally did say "yes" with a big gulp....and well, I'll leave the rest up to your imaginations....but afterwards he told me "no one has ever asked me if I'd like a BJ."....my response was "well just so you know....I've never asked anyone if they'd like one, I've always been asked.....so now we've both done something we've never done before."
This morning before he left for work I got a big kiss and a "thanks for last night!"
I refuse to suppress that side of myself any longer.
