The thing I think is somewhat funny (not in a hilarious way) is that what my H was hiding from me....IMPO isn't kink, it's nothing wierd....all it is, is an affinity for raw sex. In that I mean what he likes, not how he necessarily is.
I'll admit since I've gained weight I'm not comfortable wearing sexy lingerie, but I donned it Saturday night and had an instant reaction....of course that along with the fact that I simply threw all my inhibitions out the window along with the all the "rules" (you know the stuff he would imply was "pressure").
Saturday evening everything was done on MY terms. I guess I had everything but the whip and collar LOL. No, no bondage guys...but everything that happened that night I dictated. You know...there's a porn star that lives within me too...along with the 3-headed hydra, and the shy girl....and that's what he's having to learn.
Last night is I believe maybe the 2nd time since I've known him (if I remember correctly) that he was the one who became aroused before I did...I didn't have to do anything, which is a huge change.
I don't want to give anyone the impression that I'm thinking this is going to become the status quo. There are too many factors going on in our R right now for me to believe that. Right now though I've said to HE!! with hiding that side of me for his "protection"....that coupled with the fact that he was so blatantly busted doing what he had been...who knows, it might have made a difference in our R.
