Hey Mama! Thanks for the cheer...so sweet. Hit a low last night, but that's to be expected. Good thing, I slept REALLY well...worked out this morning and feel great. Little stressed b/c so much to do b/f I leave for vacation, but keeps me busy. The house is a wreck, so I called H to see if he's coming today or tomorrow....he was asleep...but for the first time, he seemed ENTHUSED to hear from me...sweet voice. Who knows what it means.
I've cooled down a bit. Accepting things as they are. You're right...come too far to be impatient now...and I try to remind myself of all the silly, horrible things I did to test his patience for years...he didn't crack for a long time. I can be patient with him. In fact, it's what he thanked me for the other day. I guess it's good that he's not trying desperately to hide things from me. Also, he's stopped using his "other" phone, uses ours now...I never asked for that.
Proves the biggest lesson in all of this to me: If you demand, control, it will run away from you and never happen. If you let go, love and show patience, you will get everything you wish. H seems to slowly be doing the things I always demanded from him...talking R, stop using phone, keeping to just friends with FF, etc.
For now, I'm gonna just focus on vacation, having a blast and putting this mess behind me for a bit, enjoy being away. Tell the truth, I'm looking forward to being in a different place and not this home. I'll deal with things when I return. Hey, who said procrastination wasn't a good thing?? !!
