Journaling again: Had a pretty emotional day yesterday. Which is good...I see it as my heart and brain venting, so I can let it go and get centered again and not let it creep out in inappropriate ways.
I cleaned the house for Hs guest...called him to let him know b/c I was going back to work. He offered to let me use his computer when I got there. We had a nice time, he wasn't as enthused or nervous as yesterday. He did mention something about the bank account, so I think he was nervous about me knowing of the transactions. I didn't even react, just talked about something else (big 180 for me). We chatted, had dinner together, he showed me stuff again, but went about his evening. I let him go to do work--being respectful of his time is a BIG thing for him...and a 180 for me.
That evening, I told him I was proud of him, and happy. He was affectionate, sweet--less so than before...I could tell the tiff had some effect, his defenses are up a little but that's to be expected. He said he hoped he made me proud, and said thank you for being so supportive. I could tell he loved to hear that I was proud...he's a hard worker, cares a lot about his work and has passion. I gave him nice compliments and insights on his growth and development Re: the past.
Nothing dramatic. Just nice time. Lots of little things H didn't do, but I didn't care. No TY for cleaning the house. All I cared about was ME...how I acted, and I'm happy to say that it was a success. I felt good about me...enough said.
