Good start to a strong day. Nice workout and feeling good about getting things done at work.
I've been reading and posting to Frank_D's thread (hey Frank, if you read mine!) and it's been so insightful to how my H feels about what he went through with depression and how I reacted. It's also been insightful in it made me feel as a W. It's something that I talked about with H, but someday we'll talk more, and hopefully he can vent as honestly has Frank does (go Frank!). Thanks, Frank. I hope I don't insult him, but b/c we can't talk to our spouses about this now, maybe talking to each other is close enough and we can sort our feelings out that way--respectfully--see the other POV..it's certainly been good for me.
H actually came home "early" last night...I expected him to stay in town forever to avoid me and get space. He went to bed early after we had some nice converstaion. Easy and relaxed...he asked for a back rub, etc. Funny, in his sleep, he said "thanks for listening to me" and I said "what" and he woke himself up and said "oh, nothing." Ahhh, I'll take a comatose compliment!
This morning we had a fun time, joked, showered, worked out. I brought up a nice memory from when we first met and he said "hey, was that the jerk you married....he seems like a nice guy after all!!!?" in a joking way, and I too joked and said "he is a great guy."
Thanked him for all the hard work he does for US to keep us from the financial misery that was our lives the last years. That means so much to him and to me--he works hard to make our life comfortable.
All in all, I feel detached and good. I think that makes H feel at ease. Hopefully he takes some time to sort his feelings out and doesn't just go with the flow. I'm glad that that trip is coming up, to give him space for this.
