Wow! Your mind must have been going a mile a minute yesterday.
I know I can say this to you because you know I would never be intentionally mean or rude to you. Hun, you are still spending way too much time thinking about your situation. Sometimes, you just have to let go completely and live each day as it comes without thought of the M, or H or anything else. For your own sanity, could you find a way to tackle this task taking small baby steps? Something to help you with the whole thought stopping process?
I just don't like to see you spending so much time worrying, thinking, dwelling...etc. You know as well as I do I did the same thing for a while and honestly all it did was deepen my depression. I finally made a commitment to let go of my brooding thoughts and just be. I am much happier now, I sleep a little better and I get way more accomplished throughout the day.
Think about it.
(((HUG)))
~SE
I'm moving on...at last I can see...life has been patiently waiting for me.
Me-32 WAH-35 DD-11 DS-4 H left 11-03 Piecing- 12/04 WAH again- 03/07 Married 12 years Divorce final May 15, 2007