Tough night for you, I feel for you. Can I just do a copy and paste of your post and put it over on my own ride? Honest, what you wrote is so true for me as well. You're just way behind where I have been, and I probably still am some days.
Remember the story about the couple that was married for a real long time, and someone asked them how they did it? The answer - they never fell out of love at the same time. Isn't that beautiful?
In reality though, are you at all preparing yourself for if you can't find a way back to each other? It's all a juggling show - I try to GAL and make strides to find the person I was happy being, I try to piece into place how I will continue on without H and still not jeopardize the chance that we will find our way back to each other, and I do try to remain open and see what may be steps leading back to something real. The last part is what gets harder and harder as we drift along without a direction.
Hang in there, A14. You've got a long ways to go yet.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
