YAY!!! Betsey and SE! I missed the 2 of you!!! My wise guides.
It helps to have encouragement and advice (but please, if you think I need a slap to shape up or look in another direction, please do so!).
Just keeping my chin up and I feel good. Sure, I have my moments, but don't we all.
You're right SE...no bashing myself. I had that realization today and thought of you...you would have been proud. I am not a bad person, am capable of being good, and have been to H in the past and everyone in my life. It's like waking from a horrible dream to see yourself again. So, not feeling too bad--just a healthy amount to keep myself honest!
H is at a meeting in town tonight...he left me a message with details...not that I asked. Should be a normal night.
I guess the anxiety, though I have let go and is considerably less, is manifesting itself with stomach aches (like a burning when you're nervous) and really cranks up when I start to head home. Mentally I'm fine, but just nauseated...also, I've been sleeping so badly. I'm hoping these go away slowly...honestly, I care about my mental state more.
