1) Have fun 2) No R talk 3) Relax 4) Be positive 5) Roll with EVERYTHING 6) NO EXPECTATIONS 7) Work on communication/validation 8) Release angry, needy and clingy behavior 9) No obsessing 10) Ignore negative stimuli 11) NO SARCASM!!!
Notes:
This is the make or break time for me personally, and maybe my marriage. I want to prove to myself that I have grown and I am not the same codependent man I have been in this marriage. She may not be over him yet, but she could very well be over me if I act like an ass. This is MY time to have fun and enjoy seeing, experiencing and photographing this beautiful country with someone I am trying to build a new foundation of friendship with. I need to release my anger, expectations and up-tightness. I want to be fun, energetic, and adventurous. I do not want to be needy or clingy. If I end up doing things on my own, I want to relish that time to really be me and understand what that means in the context of this wonderful experience I am having. If the opportunity presents itself, or even if not, I want to be romantic, and not in a sexual way, more just by being a gentleman of grace and mystery. I do NOT expect her to reciprocate but will be open to signs that she may give me. I want to show the behavior of a mature, stable man that doesn't NEED her, but does want her. I want to take the emotional risks I have not taken in years by being confidet enough to really TRY to be attractive and not be afraid of rejection. I WILL NOT BE RULED BY EMOTIONS, mine OR hers. The result of this trip will be a wealth of experiences and images that I will cherish for the rest of my life. It will be the defining time when I finally decided to really be the man I want to be.
