Thanks to both of you. I won't reply to each of the comments as I usually do. Suffice to say amen to all of it, and I really appreciate the support.
It's so hard to just let go when she's right there, for the most part, trying to live life as usual. Whatever I do seems like an over reaction if that makes any sense. She lives life as usual and doesn't understand when I do/say/feel things that I never used to do/say/feel. Does that make sense? It's like no matter what I do to change, it's a reaction in her mind (as if I really don't have a will or mind of my own) and deserving of being called out as such. Not everything is an issue mind you but the more obvious ones are. If I don't answer my phone, it's an issue. If I go out more than usual, it's an issue. Talk about controlling...
Well, she called this morning and it's business as usual once again. She was nice and just wanted to ask my opinion on a financial matter. First I validated her feeling anxious about it (it involves money and her parents...never a good mix) and then gave her a thoughtful answer. That was it. She said she'd call later.
I will close by saying that unfortunately I am still at the point where I just don't know if I WANT this to continue. She has a lot to prove to ME and that process is nowhere near beginning so far as I can tell. The thing that keeps me going is the realization that my W did something similar to this for YEARS if you believe her account of our marriage. I suppose I can give it more than 2 months...
