P.S. We are leaving next Thursday and will be gone until the following Thursday.
OT,
I don't think there is ANY way my W does not feel desired by me. I am NOT smothering her with anything, and I have really moved away from the old sophomoric/sarcastic attitude I had towards $ex/compliments (if you could call them that) and she seems to be responding. She smiles now when I comment on how she looks instead of the "yea, whatever, you just want sex" look I used to get. She really seems to appreciate it more than before. I am not sure we are any closer to ML or even kissing, but we are somewhere we have never been before in how we interact. It's actually like two adults now instead of shy high-school kids.
As for this trip being make or break, yea, I have thought of that, and I am going to make sure that I am attuned as I possibly can. More than that, I am really just going to try something new for me; being a grown up man and treating my W like the beautiful woman I think she is. I will also pay attention to her body language and what she says. Any clues she gives me, I will pay attention to, good OR bad and just act accordingly. Again, in the past, I would have asked a question if I got a clue "Oh, does that mean you're in the mood." or "Would you like me to..." Not exactly "turn-on" type of behavior. I was always SO afraid of rejection I would do just about everything to make totally sure things were ok to do before I did them. I don't have that fear anymore and I think it will make me a better man, for my W or anyone else in the future if it comes to that.
As for her change of bedtime attire, I was somewhat responsive, but it ended when she fell asleep. Dunno if she planned it that way, but I only got a little bit into a nice back/leg rub and she was out.
Again, all this sounds like I have these HUGE expectations. Well, I do, but they're all placed squarely where they belong, on me. I expect to have fun, be light hearted, romantic (unrequited or not), friendly and full of energy. If my W is looking to see who I am right now, then she will see me in all my glory. If that is appealing to her, then great. If not, then I guess the road may get a little rougher but no matter, it's all in the journey, right? Will I be disappointed if AFTER this trip things aren't better between us? Sure, but that's for AFTER the trip. For now, and during the trip I am going to live in the moment and just see what happens. No matter what I will come back with some GREAT wall art. I will make sure to post a gallery of it for you all!
