New Year, New Life, New Me...New Thread!

[StrongEnough]

Had a very busy weekend around here this weekend. H and I got everything done that we needed to in order to prepare for his going away this week. (You might think he was going forever...) But, it was nice to have everything I need until he gets home because S2 is a big boy and can be a handful and a half to take out, sometimes I have trouble controlling him because of his incredible strength. Oh well, he's my little guy and I love him to bits. Ugh..and he is turning 3 next month.

So, we had a long drive with the kids going shopping and such today. We were relaxed and the kids were watching the dvd player..so I thought it was a good time to bring up Foxwoods. I told him that I wanted to discuss before he left for his trip so if I had to cancel I had time. Long story short, he is all good with me going alone. He is going to worry because of where it is and who works there, but the way things have been between us gives him a certain level of comfort, trust and happiness. He said he wants me to be able to do what I want to do and not worry about it. All in all the conversation went nicely and I think we both felt good about it.

So, H left. I was fine all day, then for some reason or another when he was getting ready to go, I got really upset. I told him that I just have this "feeling of impending doom". Like this time away is going to make him/me/us realize we don't want to be together. Crazy. I don't know what is going on in my mind.

So, while he is away I am going to paint the rooms I have to, etc. We discussed today about moving as soon as D10 finishes school so she'll have time to make friends before starting school in a new state. We talked about all the benefits of moving. This state is terrible. They tax us to death. I already pay $4200 a year in real estate taxes. They assessed the houses 2 years ago and my taxes went up. They reassessed them again, and my property value increased by $100,000. So.....I am looking at an additional $3,000 in RE taxes if I stay here. Umm...yeah, I'm all set. To me, that's just outrageous. We have to pay for the city having been mismanaged for too many years. Well, we (school systems) didn't get any of the money that the city government was embezzling and stealing and giving out to the wrong people. I didn't elect them, not my fault. Anyway, I could on and on about politics but I won't.

So, it's going to be a LOOONNNGGG week.

~SE