New Year, New Life, New Me...New Thread!

[StrongEnough]

Ok, so this morning we were talking about H going away this week for school with work. He was talking about his hotel reservations, and I thought what better time to bring up my reservations. So, I slipped it into the conversation. I told H that I wasn't trying to be rude or deceitful by not consulting him first, but I booked it anyway because I literally got THE last room at the tournament rate. They book up pretty fast. He asked when it was, I told him it was a Monday night, but we cold still try to find a babysitter.

H's response: "Well, if we can't then you'll have to forfeit the room, that's all." THen he looks at me and says "Oh, were you thinking of going alone". I told him that I was, if we couldn't get a bagysitter but I understood if this was a problem and made him uncomfortable and that I would cancel the whole thing. He said it was alright, to go if I wanted to, it wasn't a problem. Unfortunately, we were talking while he was getting ready for work so he really didn't get to say a whole lot. I will readress this later with him. He knows I have always wanted to do the tournament and when I get the invitations, by the time I try to sign up all the good time slots are taken and the rooms are sold out. For once, I actually got a room and a good time slot.

So, not sure what to make of the situation yet. Like I said, I will readress it with him later when he gets home from work. I don't want to go if it really does make him uncomfortable. I don't want him to spend the night worrying instead of having fun with the kids. But, I also know that he doesn't want to seem controlling and may be pushing his feelings aside and saying go ahead anyway.

Wow, if anyone can create their own drama..it's me. The crazymaker.

~SE