Well, I thought I would post an update on our weekend. It seems that H DOES have desire. We had an awesome conversation Saturday morning. We talked openly about what we want, what we would like to try (now, and eventually later), we were blunt about our words, no shyness what so ever. By the end of the conversation H had a huge woody and we were making out like teenagers in the middle of the kitchen. Something he would never have done before. There was also moments of teasing and touches through out the weekend, which has never happened. I am in shock that all of this is actually happening.

So, it looks like H is pretty hung up on what is supposed to be "normal" and that he thinks he shouldn't be wanting the things he does. It's going to take some time, but I think we are on our way. Our communication has never been better, it is great to ask him, "hey, does this turn you on" and him tell me yes or no.

After ML on Sunday, he says to me, "boy, our SL was really boring wasn't it?". Yes it was, but not anymore!

Not that I am ignoring the porn thing, but I am going to stop monitoring his computer activity. He has shown no signs of doing anything but looking. This could have had a different ending, but I am so glad I was able to turn my findings into something positive for us. It helped find out that he does have desire, I just had to unlock it!!!

Nicky

"There are two types of people -- those who come into a room and say, 'Well, here I am,' and those who come in and say, 'Ah, there you are.'" Frederick Collins