Thanks for checking in. Today is a better day. I did find more internet activity, but he's not logging into anything or chatting with anyone, it's just looking. Which I have decided is a good thing. I know he has desire somewhere in there. We had an interesting conversation last night. We were talking about how we couldn't believe we were going to be married 9 years this spring. I asked him if he ever thought about trying out something new, you know how we can fall into the "same old dull routines"...he said rather sheepishly that yeah maybe, but he's not real creative in that way. So, I started asking him if there were certain things he'd like to try (going off of some of the stuff I found he was looking at). He did say that he'd be into some new things, but it'll have to be me who takes the dominant role in the bedroom. Which I can deal with. Hopefully he will get to a comfortable spot where he can play the role I need to him to play too.
Sooo, he has scheduled some time for us tonight and we have had some playful emails back and forth today which make the anticipation all that more.
I am starting to relate to what you are saying about performance anxiety though. I am worried I don't have what it takes and that I'm going to feel silly putting out these "new" things to try. But I am game and it can only going to make our SL better.
Lou, I have to say, I think you are on to something with my H being insecure about S. He may just be viewing to get ideas or mentally live out fantasies he's to afraid to try in person.
Nicky
"There are two types of people -- those who come into a room and say, 'Well, here I am,' and those who come in and say, 'Ah, there you are.'"
Frederick Collins
