Well I have no idea what to think. Yesterday she called me at least 4 times and sounded real good and happy to talk to me, but it kinda seemed like she was checking up on me and using real lame reasons to call. She did this alot (used lame exuses to call me) shortly after I started my 180 and started getting a life in the beginning of our situation. She had a real bad migrane last night and this morning witch is something she suffers from regularly. I told her how buitiful she was and she said she didnt feel buitiful that she felt old, run down and exhausted, probley due to stress/anxiety over her feelings but I dont know. This morning she was in the bathroom and from the hallway I said by to her and have a nice day like I do every morning and she came out and gave me a kiss goodbye, she usually does this but hasnt the last couple of days. Thing is she sorta smiled/grinned at me in a wierd way after kissing me and almost looked sad or emotional, like mabye an im sorry for being such a mess and starting all this up again or an im sorry I dont want to be with you any more and just dont want to hurt you look, just not sure witch one it was. I also think she was having a hard week last week and questioning thing a bit and said some thing in our conversations last weekend that mabye she didnt mean or regrets saying? For sure she is completely confused and doesnt know what she really wants from what I can see. One minute shes telling me she wants space and telling my best friend the same thing on Sat. and the next shes trying to keep me from going our Sat. night and keep me from going to church and the gym on sunday. Then sunday night whe have a real nice family dinner and shes rubbing my back in bed telling me she had panic/anxiety attact with me not being home most of the day. Dang am I confused and I could really use some advice on what to do. I know i'll start giving her more space and no R talks but what else? Her best friend and her kids will be in town this weekend. I ask her last night if she was going to our cabin (only 30 min. from here) to get away and hang out with her and the kids, she said she was and said I could come if I want. I declined and said she should probley spend time with her freind as they dont see each other much. Then she reminded me that next weekend she'll be going out of town with her mom (kids will stay here with me) so thats two weekend in a row we wont see each other, I said thats ok just enjoy your time with mom and freind. Any input would be helpfull, thanks!!!
