I am not on the same wave length as the rest with you right now. I apolize I am not gonna tell you to stop beating yourself up and to take it easy on yourself. But I understand the whole rewritting of history. Though I believe it is more then just a defense mechanism based on your relationship in this case. I think you are on the verge of saying something that you need to say. And I am trying to not jump and put words into your mouth and take a line from your book and wait and see if I am right about what I think you have issue with. (reference to you thinking I have more then one secret).
