Great post Cobra. I second what you said to BF. Don't be so rigid. Keep the door open. You might be surprised about how you feel if you at least have the option of her in your life BF. You are obviously in pain now so Cobra is right. It is about how you FEEL, or what is all the R talk about? You know I am trying to change my perceptions about my own M, but if I don't FEEL a difference, feel some sense of peace, acceptance, I will never get to a place of contentment. Or worse, I will still be in pain, carrying around resentment and hurt. Just because you push someone out of your life does not mean the pain goes away with them. You are so much smarter now about your mistakes in the M that maybe it could really work if you tried again. She is obviously having a hard time herself (anxiety attacks on the phone). She is still reaching out to let you know she is there and in pain herself. It sounds like the two of you have tons of unfinished emotions to deal with, regarding the M. Lots of people get back together BF, even after the big D. Never say never is all. Thinking of you and hope you are ok. LFL
