Emerging from my cave

[Stigmata]

Your a strange bird Stigmata.

- Yeah. That name was already taken. So I settled on Stigmata. Plus with this whole avian flu thing going on and all. Wanted SOMEBODY to at least talk to me.
And I do mean that as a compliment. Really!

- Thanks! (and I do mean that as an acceptance of your alleged "compliment.")

Yes, your circuitous ramblings have me double and triple checking the poster to see who the heck is writing now, Stig or BF. Freaky twin minds living on opposite ends of the country. Separated at birth perhaps.

- Hear that, BF/MWD AI program? Email me your DNA analyses please. Oh, LFL. Twins. That would entail a 4-year long labor. Ouch! Looking at our age differences. Of course I popped out of our mom first. Blackie needed to cook a little longer AS USUAL.

Anyways, your comments regarding
The feeling of, "all the BS I had to endure...stress...blah blah blah" and you dump ME?" WTF? Resentment and bitterness central. So I guess I'm waiting for some kind of show of effort to initiate R discussion from her.
Major blow to the ego. Understandable. Resentment Central for sure. And your plan to wait for her to show some effort is probably the right one. I mean specifically related to the R.

- Yes. Nada word of R stuff from her. No big surprise from what I've learned after finding this site. Still pizzes me off tho.

But to be her friend again. This is very hard for me as I am still smarting from her zero effort to even discuss anything, let alone talk to an third-person counselor.
BTDT. The more I pushed, the further he went. You NEED to be a friend to her IF you want have a chance of healing the R.

- How'd you get through this? Cripes. Before re-reading DR. Like trying to catch a fish with your bare hands--the "pushing." "Hey, I've been thinking about you..." Thwip! Gone. Dangit! Slippery sucker! WTH.

If not, then take the BF approach, no contact even if she initiates. That's up to you. My sense is you would really like to have her back despite all the hurt. I know I feel for you. It's a hard stage to get through.

- Well, I can honestly say the more days the chemicals drip out of my system the less motivated I am. I'd like to have more answers before the "having back." Jury's still deliberating 11-1 and it's that obstinate freaking last juror who's keeping everybody eating pizza and wanting to wring his scrawny little neck.

Is it totally off the radar right now? Do you talk at all?

- Rarely. Email once in while. I never initiate. She's immersed herself in conquering the business world it would seem. Plus, I stopped responding in kind after hearing the "cordiality." Say if my name were always Bob and suddenly she's calling me "Robert." WTF? Don't act like I'm some d!ck off the street please.

I think you need to start doing that. Maintain a connection, even if it is painful.

- Yes, it is painful. Bullseye.


I can feel the love you have for her in your posts even if you are fighting resentment. To steal from HP, she would be LUCKY to have you as her H again.

- Really? That comes across? Hmmm, will have to think about that. I thought maybe it was the JR Ewing kind of "love." "The woman Stigmata and all of Stigmata's friends love to hate."

...Oh, and that second part. What in tarnation are you trying to do to me, Woman/Women? Give me self-esteem? Poppycock! I'm supposed to be getting that over on Chromo's thread.

-Stigmata-