QUESTION THOUGH: it bothers her when I express my feelings of loving her and hoping for reconciliation. Should I stop expressing my love for her and my hope of reconciliation and forgiveness and just continue SHOWING her how I feel and showing her that I am making obvious positive changes in my live to be a better person, father, and (hopefully) husband?
Tom, it bothers her not because it is not the attractive solution to her TODAY. This does not mean that she may not feel differently down the road but at this very moment she wants as far away from you and the pain that she feels around you. Hell when I went through it, I physically jumped on a plane and went 1200 miles away from my H. That's how badly I HAD to get away. FWIW, I did end up leaving my H and filing for D...but I did give him every opportunity to try and change his ways (it was more than just one oops, it was 15yrs of OOPS so that is a difference in our sitches).
The key is here is the reason why you got yourself in the A to begin with...something lacking in you, the M, in your needs? This is where you need to begin your journey. All you can do for her is to show consistency in your changes as you delve into yourself here for self-reflection. That will be the key to her when you show remorse. Time can heal the pain but she needs the space from you also to let her process these feelings.
