GH brought up some very valid thoughts for you to think about. Your W is going to run the gamut of emotions until she works through everything, IF she ever does. There is no guarantee. Some people would rather just walk away from a sitch like this than stay and fight the good fight. She may forgive you and decide to stay and work on the M and she may decide that she wants nothing further to do with you.
She really needs her space to feel and work things through. She loves you but the pain is so intense that she cannot see past it. The man she loved and gave herself to has let her down beyond belief. Only time can heal wounds. Begging, pleading for mercy may sometimes work in a sitch like this when sincere but if her head is somewhere else nothing you can say/do will matter. Time and distance bring reflection to both partners. She may find in time if you are consistent in your changes and facing your own issues as to why you strayed away from the M, she may begin to feel that perhaps she can be safe with her heart again.
I read through your thread and maybe you have posted elsewhere but I wasn’t able to get down to the jest of the A. Why? What do you feel that was lacking in your M that caused you to stray? You’ve got some stuff you need to work through also, just as your W does.
