Thank you so much for taking your time in your own time of crisis. This news is less than two weeks old for her. The A has been over for a long time, but the wake of this bombshell has (quite possibly) destroyed my marriage/life.
I did a stupid, selfish, insensitive act. I am certainly paying for it now, as I should be. Unfortunately, my wife and children are paying for what I did also.
I will certainly listen when she finally decides to talk. I am hopeful that she will decide to talk/forgive and I am praying that we will give us the opportunity to reconcile and that I will have the chance to make amends for messing up so badly.
I am working to give her her space and time to feel, deal, and heal. Right now my focus is work and caring for our two beautiful children without making matters any worse for her. I do love her. THAT is what makes this all so difficult on me as well. I feel so stupid.
I vow that if she affords me the opportunity to reconcile and make amends I will work feverishly to insure that our marriage is NEVER again fertile grounds for this kind of mistake/trouble. I pray she will work with me to re-make our marriage much better.
In the meantime, I'll focus on our children, help her out in whatever way she allows, listen if she talks and read up on healing from infidelity and improving our marriage.
I could certainly use all of your prayers and positive thought sent my way. I hope for the best outcome from this sh*tty situation I have created. Thanks.
