I am brand new to this site, so please bear with me.
I recently had an affair and my spouse became aware of it and is crushed, angry, hurt, sad, and confused. I confessed my mistake to her two weeks ago and I have been staying at my sister's home while we figure this out, per her request.
The affair was hurtful and thoughtless. It was a one time mistake and was over long ago. It came to light because the OW did not keep quiet. The OW let LOTS of people know about my mistake, and that's how it became known to my wife, and everyone else for that matter.
I feel awful that I strayed and betrayed my wife and that I have hurt her so badly. I am afraid that my wife will think divorce is the ONLY available option to resolve this mess.
I am also devastated that I have jeopardized my ability to be with my family (we have a 5 yr old D and a 6 month old S), as before and quite possible damaged my marriage irreparably. My D does not understand why Daddy is not staying at home. That breaks my heart.
I understand that I am the only one to blame. I want so desperately to reconcile with my wife; to make amends; to be forgiven... but I am learning from reading various posts that this is all going to take TIME. I understand I need to be infinitely patient and allow her her space and time to feal, deal, and heal. I pray she looks at our options, and does not just focus in on the Big D.
Any encouragement, advice, prayers would be greatly appreciated. Thanks
