I’m having a bad day, I guess. This is wearing on me. I’m not doing well with detaching today.
I’ve been thinking a lot about H’s different explanations regarding him and o.w., and the whole pregnancy thing. Long story short, he’s contradicted himself so much that this doesn’t add up. I know there are things he is lying about and keeping from me. I want to know the truth, but then again I don’t want to push him away. As his legal spouse I feel that I should know what is going on. With him still keeping in touch with o.w. a part of me wonders if she did miscarry; maybe she is still pregnant? Or maybe she never really was…I don’t know but this whole thing doesn’t make sense. H. first said she was pregnant in the late summer. Now his latest story is that she got pregnant in late winter and miscarried in Jan. It can’t be both. Something isn’t right
He hadn’t called since Mon. night. I called him a few times this morning; he did finally answer and sounded fine. I asked how he was feeling, and he said ok. When I mentioned it had been several days since we’d last spoken he seemed surprised that it’d been 4 days. He was running an errand and said he’d call me later, but he asked how puppy was doing (didn’t ask how I am though).
I just want to know what’s really going on with him, o.w., and whatever real pregnancy there was.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
