H. just called here; needed me to look for something that he has to come by and pick up tomorrow. He sounds absolutely MISERABLE. His voice is barely above a whisper, he sounds completely depressed and sad. I was tempted to ask him what was wrong but I didn't. I mean, that would really be a stupid question. H. actually had some good news to share; he's getting an award at work, but he does not sound happy about it at ALL. I told him I was happy for him and proud of him, and he said thank you, but geesh, there is no joy in his voice tonight. The conversation wasn't bad; we weren't arguing or anything, but he is as low as low can be.
And I think back to hearing him talk to o.w. on the phone and he does not sound like that when he talks with her.
All this pain for both H. and me; how does it go away? I hate that both of us feel like this.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
