Hi everyone, Back from my little trip. It was ok. It's hard to have fun when you feel so completely lousy inside, but I did my best and felt loved for a couple of days. My family is very supportive.
NYS, your post made me smile, because I know how right you are. H. is now seeking happiness by looking for yet a "different" woman. The moment these words left his mouth I was thinking to myself, 'There you go again, looking for happiness in someone else. Haven't you learned yet?'
Yes, his R. with o.w. isn't all he thought it would be. I think he stays with her because she is tolerant of his wandering eye and she knows he's not faithful, but still doesn't care enough to break up with him. So, why not keep her around I guess?
As I've said before, I never believed I would end up in something so sordid. This is not like me at all; I do not find pleasure in this drama and disgust.
He definitely does not love himself, NY S. I agree with you fully. It makes me sad inside to know this. I realize I can't help him with this problem, but really, this is a man with SO much potential to be such a wonderful person. He hates what he did and now hates himself, and he can't seem to stop what he's doing. It's so painful to watch him slowly self-destructing.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
