Hope,

I do feel for you with all my heart right now;
I don't know how much worth my prayers have however since no matter how much I prayed things are getting worse;
but let's hope that prayers for someone else work better.

ALso, keep in mind that every birth feels like a death. End of one chapter is the beginning of another; and I'm sure you're able to write a happy chapter yourself.

To get through the darkest period of the night, act as if it is already morning. The Talmud