F4W -

Yep, if it makes you feel any better, I STILL monitor
what I say and do around my DH. Unfortunate, but true.

I don't know if I will ever NOT think twice about
everything I say or do.

We have been reconciled for 1.5 yrs now and I still
struggle with saying ILY. Maybe someday that will change.

so, yeah, I agree, it stinks that we can't just "BE" anymore. Then again, if I had known that before my separation certain things are better left unsaid, I might
not have ever been a LBS in the first place. So I guess
I look at this as my punishment. Live and learn.

That being said, I have seen in your sitch that when you
stop the "why don't you love me the way I love you" stuff
with your DW, she starts coming around. Unfortunate that
we have to play these games in our marriages. Uggghhh.