"I wish I'd have been mature and secure enough to do that one years ago. I might not be where I am today."
Where are you in your own sexual exceptance? Do you hold back a side of your sexual self? Does what you do feel natural to you? Do you feel kissing is initating sex? By that I mean is kissing a means of intitating sex for you?
I am pretty sexually open. But there was a time not so long ago. Even I would not be so blantley truthful about my sexuality. I was not comfortable with it so did not act upon it. But the thoughts wants and desires were there they just went unacknowledged. It took me acting on some of my sexual impulses to become comfortable with them.
There are certain things I am still not sexually comfortable with. But they border on the lines of things I am also not sexually interested in. Like threesomes and anal sex. Yeah but no thank you. Not even gonna go there. But I have defined and can seperated the things I am comfortable with and the things I am just not interested in.
Would you be comfortable in telling Barn what you want and how you want it straight out? If not is it because you are uncomfotable with it or fear the rejection you might face.
I'm sure not the sex goddess he wants or dreams of....but I'm a pretty great wife who is, at least, trying.
Nice girl no one can discredit you for trying. I remember reading all your post from even before I was here. God knows you have a heart of gold and determination that I lack.
