I did ask him about it the following morning. His answer was, basically, that it caught him off guard and he didn't know what to expect.
I quit stewing today. I wasn't thinking about it as we'd both said we were sorry about it and we did move on. HOwever, I realized that I haven't been myself since then..at times...just had no motivation..no spark. I am always pretty sparky and energetic about life.
I traced it back to that day and saw that it just took the hope out of me. Hope that when I lose more weight he'll be in love with me...
I'm 5'7" and a size 12...I am not obese. It's just I used to be a size 8..you know. I am not disgusting or anything.
I was teetering. I realized that was what started the funk that I was in. I don't like it! I like to feel happy. I needed to figure out what I needed to change about my outlook and thinking to get Nicegal back in the attitude she needed to be in.
I didn't dare ask anything at the moment! Why? The possiblity of an argument...I was way too hurt and my emotions were too on edge to talk at that time. I had to wait and cool off so I could be rational. That much I have learned about myself.
In the past I would have talked RIGHT THEN. I would have PUSHED the subject. Men cannot handle it with too much emotion mixed in...have to cool off and be more logical.
