Trouble is I am not sure what I want... Ultimately I do want to make things work with my H, BUT the problem is I know he will not commit at the moment. He wants to carry on as we are and see how things go and take things slowly between us... My problem is that I know this sounds really selfish but having my BF around does make it easier for me to cope... knowing my H is still seeing OW... I am scared that if I end it with my BF I will end up going back to feeling obssessive about my H again and maybe pushing things too quickly with him...
Having my BF around has defintely allowed me to focus on myself and GAL....
I suppose I am scared of things not happening with my H and ending back at square one again...
