Quote: I have gained alot of weight through pregnancy and medications and am not proud of how I look, but have not managed to loose the weight. He said that is a problem for him and although I can understand it from him point of view, I don't think he has even though of putting himself in my shoes.
That really hit home for me. I gained about 20 lbs as a result of having kids. When he dropped the bomb, and after I found out about OW, he told me he just wasn't attracted to me anymore. [Can we say ouch?] What truly pisses me off is that I lost 30+ lbs as a result of the betrayal diet [and I am 5'11" so I carried it pretty well] and he has been "hot for me" constantly since the weight started dropping off, even before he broke things off with OW. He even told me, "If only you had lost the weight six months ago..." I think that will always be an echo within me. The fact that my physical body determines his faithfulness makes me ill. He swears that THAT had nothing to do with it but that is really easy to say NOW, kwim? I had his kids. And he wants me to look like a teenager? Screw that. He eats HORRIBLY and doesn't gain weight. He gained weight too but that never determined whether or not I found him attractive. His attitude determined that.
Sometimes I wonder if HE is really the man I was meant to be with. So even though he is wanting to come home, after remembering what I deserve, do I really want him here?
Right now the door is open but NO WAY will I stick around if I can;t have a REAL relationship.
Anyway, sorry for the tangent, that just struck too close to home.
