It's been a while since I have posted - nothing to write I suppose. My situation hasn't changed much. H is still travelling and coming home each weekend. There is no intimacy between us athough we sleep in the same bed. He bought me a new car (new to me!) and continues to talk about future investments together and a possible family trip to Europe next year.
In the one talk we have had since February, he said that he is only here for the kids. His actions says otherwise, but it is very confusing. Do I believe what he says to me or do I believe what I see? I get kisses when he goes out and at bedtime, but nothing else. Could he truly only be here for the kids?
He seems to be happy here at home and a little lonely when he is away. He even called me during the day yesterday to see how I was. He always calls at night and talks to me and the kids, but it is rare he calls during the day for no reason.
I just don't know how to take him. Right now I am keeping busy with my own things and have tried to have no expectations of him. It has made it alot easier on me. We spend most of our time together when he is home - with and without the kids.
Our anniversary came and went in March. I gave him a card that made him tear up (talked about how much I admired all that he has accomplished and how well he has taken care of me and the kids). He said he had nothing for me - except for my new vehicle in the driveway. I said it was an awsome present and make sure that everyone around knew what he gave me for our anniversary. He tried to dismiss it by saying that I needed a new vehicle anyway.
I just wish he would tell me where he stands. I will not ask as I don't want to push and maybe I am also afraid of the answer.
I don't know if I have a question or not, but I think I'm looking for some encouragement to continue on. It is hard to continue to be strong.
