Thanks NYS, you come back to me at the right time. I really appreciate that advice as always. It is really hard to accept some of these things. To explain a little more about what I mean by "most of the time" her actions back up her words, I mean there are some things I observe with her that don't necessarily fit with someone mending their marriage and dumping the OM...or maybe they do? She sleeps in these t-shirts at night she claims are mine, but they are XL's...I wear medium. She listens to love songs on her iPod constantly, and I don't think she's thinking of me (she has me update her iPod and I see the play counts...snooping I guess, but it would be hard not to notice). She had a teddy bear in her arms last night, and it wasn't something I gave to her. There are more things like that, but the picture I get is of someone clearly not over somebody at the least, and still seeing them and "in love" at the most. She still has not claimed to have broken things off with him but just that she supposedly talked to him about it needing to end on Valentines day. I know this is all about her, and I can't force the issue without unpredictable at best results. I still think before we embark on this trip it would be good to know where things stand. Am I asking for too much? Or, is it that I am asking in the wrong way? Maybe I shouldn't require a conversation, just action? I think I am comfortable going to Ireland and just trying to be the best man I can be, having no expectations, and letting the romance of staying in little countryside B&B's do whatever magic it may do. Again, I THINK I am ok with doing that but I am still afraid that I will have expectations and react poorly if they don't come true. No matter what, I am totally committed to this trip being fun. I just want to give myself the best chance to be stress-free....may not happen, eh? Like I said, my compass is a little messed up right now. I know this could be a very perilous part of my journey in all this and I would hate to let fear or confusion deter me from the right thing to do...or not do.
