Well, today is not starting out really well. Nothing much going on and as they say, an idle mind is the devil's playground. I keep having thoughts go through my head about how I feel like I am about done with all this. I know I have been here a thousand times before and it won't last. It feels like I get to a place where I really feel good about myself and thats when I look at this sitch and think "I don't need this anymore." I don't really feel that way but it's now that it seems like it would be so easy to just tell my W to either stay or go, I don't care which. The weekends usually bring this on and this one is no exception. I will get past it with any luck at all. Still holding out hope that Ireland will do me a lot of personal good and maybe do something for my R. We'll see.
