Ok, I will try to remember everything, good and bad.
After the presents thing my W went to the store. I gathered myself and got the kids ready to go. When she got back she did a few things and out of the blue she said "I asked you if you made any new friends because I saw a gift bag in your car." WTF! I laughed and said "That's funny. It was for you but I got the VS stuff so I didn't need it." Then, of course, I said...(sorry people)..."I don't think you REALLY want to start that conversation now do you?" and...
W: No, not really. M: Good, because I am not the one going out with another man on V-day. W: I know. M: Is it that important to you? W: Like I said, it is just a coincidence that it's on v-day. It's the only time I can go. M: Ok fine. W: I know we need to talk. M: Ok, when? W: Soon. This can't go on much longer. We need to talk about that. M: I assume you don't mean WE need to talk about that. W: No, I need to talk about it tonight [with OM]. M: Ok. That should go well. W; Yea. M; (hug) I know it's hard for you too, and above all else, take care of yourself please. W: I will.
We probably said more, and despite what it sounded like, it was a pretty ok convo. I said some questionable things but the gist is that she said she was going to talk to OM tonight about ending the A. I don't know if she even knows what is going to happen. I sure as hell don't.
So I took the boys out to dinner and when I got back, I found a box of french chocolates, a candle and a card. In the card was...
Front: With Love....Valentine Inside Printed: You mean everything to me.
Her words: I know that I've put you through a lot but you are still my husband and I still love you.
Um, sorry, I didn't make my goal... I am not jumping for joy or anything, but it is nice to read that. Guess I'm a sucker.
What do you think? I think I did ok. She started the R talk a bit but I did not do a good job holding back entirely. I slipped but it was a FAR cry from what I had in my mind to say and do. I am ok for now. Not believing much of anything right now. Actions, not words are my religion right now. We'll see.
