My H and I had a great time at the beach. Unfortunately on the way there and once we got home we got into truly awful fights. The horrible thing is the fights weren't over anything important--one was about him bringing this bag of his that I really hate with him into a restaurant.
On Sunday we mostly made up and had a long talk. I basically told him that sometimes I need him to do things I ask (things I know he doesn't want to do like not bringing the bag with him) just to make me happy. And, I said, the more he does them, the less I will ask.
I don't think until we were talking did I realize how much seeing the ow with my H at the airport really set me back. Until last week my H and I hadn't been fighting and had been getting along great. I told him that I didn't go to the airport thinking she would be there. I said I went because I missed him and in the back of my mind I thought the ow might be there because my H was acting really suspicious--but that there was no way she would be there because my H and I had been getting along so well and were talking about moving in together.
He said he knew I didn't go thinking she would be there. I told him I felt like a fool and that it made me feel like I was supposed to take the hint--he picked her to take with him.
Another really big issue between us is that I haven't always felt my H is on my side. I need to feel that I am important and that my opinion counts. I think that is why I want to start wearing our rings. I want him to be willing to openly admit to his friends and coworkers that he is working on his M.
He has agreed to start living with me four days a week but besides still not wanting to wear his ring he has yet to decide if we're definitely reconciling.
So I guess I am now working out for myself how much I need from him to keep me from moving on and leaving this roller coaster behind.
