Wow, "calmly sad." What a good description. To be honest I think my friend was pissed at being kept out of the loop. The thing is, I understand her feeling a little hurt but that didn't justify her reaction. I guess I kinda thought she'd understand how I felt about wanting to keep things under wraps until I knew what was going on.
Yesterday we were out shopping and she made some comment along the lines of "have you heard from H or are you not going to say." (Big sigh)
My H should either be back now or in the air. To be honest, I feel a bit sick to my stomach over it. I got no call or text message before he departed and I'm wondering what is going on.
I'm not sure I'm ready to hear about where my H is at in terms of our R (well, unless it's good news. )
I really didn't expect to feel so nervous about the prospect of seeing him after a month. Perhaps it's fear that after getting lots of I love yous and I miss yous while he's been away that it won't translate once he's back.
And I guess a part of me is starting to get past the part where I'm ready to work on things. Lately I've just been feeling really mad, and as you said GH, quietly sad and questioning how much effort I want to put into repair work while he is still into demolition or at the very least holding up the necessary building permits.
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