Just when you think you are out, they pull you back in!!
Things did not go well when I met my H yesterday. I thought he was going to give me a copy of the signed property settlement agreement and then we were going car shopping. Instead we went to his apartment and I ended up just giving him his birthday present and then consoling him. (I'm realizing that we seem to spend a lot of time crying together but I should point out that we're both writers and his grandfather was an Irish poet so we do tend to be melodramatic.)
I truly don't understand my H. How can he say he loves me, misses me and wishes he could take away all my hurt but STILL not want to take even the smallest step toward reconciliation. This on top of him telling me he considered asking for a transfer to one of his job's foreign offices so we could start over together.
After we spoke on the weekend, he called and texted me several times a day--he was clearly excited about seeing me as this was not his normal behavior. But after yesterday I feel he roped me back in and now knows he has me back so he can continue along in his previous course of limbo.
I'm just so mad and hurt and frustrated that he won't sign the property settlement agreement so I can file but he also refuses to make any effort to move forward. And, to top it off, he didn't want to ML because he said it would just make him more upset. (I know GH you don't have much sympathy here but at least you are still living with your W. I would trade sex in a minute to be able to go to fall asleep and wake up next to my H.)
I hate the fact that each time I get to the point where I'm going to be OK moving on he gets all emotional and tells me he's not sure what he wants and gives me hope and pulls me right back to limbo.
