Well attempts to remain positive have escaped me today. I'm just so tired and I just don't see any hope. I feel like I am just prolonging my misery and nothing is working. I don't contact him and I haven't been pursuing him and that suits him just fine.
I made the mistake of looking at the phone bill and noticed how many times he has called OW#2. He's said they're just dating and that it isn't sexual but only an idiot would believe that. I mean this is not his first A. It's his second.
This week I'm going to see a lawyer and I'm seriously thinking of just filing and getting it over with. There's no waiting period to file on grounds of adultery in VA and I can name both the home-wrecking b!tches as co-defendants. Then they can see if my H was worth it.
