Thanks for your reply. Don't take this the wrong way, but knowing that my H isn't the only one acting arrogant and selfish makes me feel a bit better. I think that is because so many people have been telling me that he is crazy, he is manipulating and controlling me, and i start to wonder if they are right. But, when i think about all of the people here that are going through the same exact thing, i stop and think that it is not necessarily a character flaw, but just how they are dealing with the current circumstances. Does that make sense?
I don't want to give up just yet, but i also don't want to be leaving the courthouse or wherever, after our D is final, and feel like i have been hit by a Mack truck. You know what i mean? I just don't want the hope that i have to blind me to the reality of what is very likely going to happen.
I have wondered if my H is having an MLC. He is going to be 39 and has had a bunch of health problems, which basically started the year we got married. He has behaved in a way that made me think he is trying to recapture his youth (going out drinking with his much younger brother, etc). My H even said to me several months ago how he wishes he could take a pill and go back to how he felt 10 years ago.
I just don't know how to get him away from ow. I don't think that there has been more than this one...at least i hope not. I just wish that he could remember how he felt the day we got married, and realize that he doesn't want to give that up. Oh, i don't know.
Anyway, thanks for your feedback...i appreciate it.
